Thursday, February 06, 2025

On Reproductive Rights, Eugenics, and Fetal Personhood

North Dakota is trying to push a fetal personhood bill through the legislature this session, and I’ve been thinking a lot (at night, in bed, staring at the ceiling while my brain whirs) about the long, long history in this country of our preoccupation with the bodily rights of people capable of giving birth.

In the 20th Century, you see, we were obsessed with THE WRONG PEOPLE having babies. The justification of Eugenics (which I have written about elsewhere and address also in fiction) was used by the state to PREVENT “undesirable” people from reproducing. Mostly these people were poor and disenfranchised (though generally speaking, as a category, disenfranchisement for women was the status quo on the whole for much of history, so it feels kind of silly to use that word here.) They were people who were perceived to be mentally incapable in some way—though it’s important to note that it really WAS about perception alone.

There was no method to this madness. Just men proclaiming that such and such a person should not be allowed to reproduce for reasons that amounted to hearsay. Maybe the person in question was deemed anti-social, somehow. Maybe they were an embarrassment of some kind to their wealthy family which could not afford the risk to their reputation (remember, those wealthy families were happy to lobotomize their daughters if they were considered too uncontrollable). Maybe they were just in the wrong place at the wrong time, or subject to abuse that left mental scars. It literally did not matter. 

Equally as important to note: It would not have been less horrific if it had been grounded in science or any kind of real means testing.

We like to believe we’ve evolved as a society, that these kinds of programs, if they existed, were VERY PROMPTLY abandoned after World War II and Hitler’s genocide showed us the end result of giving the state the power to decide who is worthy of—well, life. Unfortunately, that isn’t true. Sterilization programs continued well into the 80s, from what I’ve found. And we still see cases of the reproductive rights of people deemed “incapable” going before the courts today.

But more pernicious still, you can hear the echo of this unexamined, unconfronted social agreement every time someone talks about how “people should have to pass a test before they’re allowed to have children.” Because we don’t talk about Eugenics, you see, or our very big role in supporting the movement, in our schools. We prefer to see ourselves as the heroes of WWII and erase our culpability in its atrocities altogether, as a result. (Convenient, really.)

In the 21st Century, plagued by the outrageous and white supremacist notion of the “Great Replacement” in combination with the Capitalist need for an unending supply of labor (as in people able-bodied enough to work), legislation has tried to move in the other direction. Instead of PREVENTING people from having children, the law wants to force them to do so (under terms, of course, still dictated by the state.) This is where Abortion Bans and Fetal Personhood bills come into play.

First you tell people that any pregnancy MUST be carried to term, and then you criminalize and punish them if they fail to accomplish that goal. There is no recognition of the fundamentally adversarial relationship of a fertilized egg inside a womb from the moment of implantation onward. No understanding of the fact that gestation is an INCREDIBLE metabolic strain for the person carrying that fetus, and not every body is capable of carrying that load while also trying to survive in a capitalist society that refuses to provide basic necessities like food, shelter, and healthcare as a baseline right, or even carrying that load under the BEST of circumstances (which these are… not). No consideration of the fact that miscarriage, is, in fact, an incredibly common experience among pregnant people, or how dangerous carrying a child to term can be for the person doing it.

Anecdotally, nearly ALL my friends with children have some firsthand experience of the heartbreak of miscarriage OR some horror story about how they nearly died of blood loss or other complications during the process of giving birth. Decades of people not talking about it because of propriety or shame does not make a thing rare. The reality of reproduction is that you can do everything right, take every precaution, employ every possible mitigation, desperately want a child, and still NOT BE ABLE to produce a baby that can survive outside the womb. There is NO MEANS by which humans can control what the outcome of the implantation of a fertilized egg in a womb will be which, fundamentally, makes legislating it ENTIRELY RIDICULOUS.

North Dakota’s personhood law does contain vague exceptions for “spontaneous miscarriage” and the “life of the mother”, but by leaving those exceptions vague, it makes the state itself the judge of what will be considered an acceptable level of risk to a person’s life, and what will or will not be ruled “spontaneous miscarriage” vs “purposeful abortion.” You can certainly see, I hope, how problematic that might be for the person who has just suffered a loss—of a child they desperately wanted, or a child they were still coming to terms with the idea of bringing into the world, or a baby they did not feel themselves capable of caring for properly.

If the person dares to express relief at a miscarriage, will they be subject to investigation? Just to be CERTAIN the miscarriage was truly “spontaneous” after all? If a person expressed reservation about becoming pregnant, and then found themselves in that state, will they be asking for the additional trauma of criminal charges in the event of a miscarriage? Just to be CERTAIN they didn’t do anything that could have caused it? If a person has a history of drug use, or mental health issues (which North Dakota already exempts from the category of threat to a mother’s life, of course, though our mental health is as physical as any other illness), and something goes awry during gestation, will we criminally investigate them, also? For a relapse, or a mental breakdown? Declare the results of either a murder though there is no knowing if that fetus would have survived to term or not, regardless?

And what will that investigation do to someone already mentally ill, already struggling with addiction? Is that not also a threat to the life and well-being of the Actual Person Living? Do you really think that anyone takes lightly the responsibility of bringing a life into the world? That they (BOTH PARENTS, THE ENTIRE FAMILY) won’t already be SUFFERING enough both physically and mentally, without also being accused of murder?

Ask yourself for a moment what you would be feeling in that scenario. And then, once you’ve reassured yourself that you’re a good person who would feel properly devastated, ask yourself why you can’t trust that OTHER people would not already be suffering in the same way that you would be? Why you feel it is necessary to impose the terror of criminal charges to ensure it?

None of this is about protecting lives, unless you don’t actually believe that PREGNANT PEOPLE are also LIVING PERSONS worthy of FULL and EQUAL protections under the law.





 
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Monday, October 30, 2023

Braving Fate: A Fate of the Gods Novella and a COST OF LIVING/Patreon update!

Yes, yes I did write another Fate of the Gods novella, and it's releasing as a serial on Patreon beginning THIS WEEK!

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BRAVING FATE takes place during the contemporary timeline of FORGED BY FATE--in fact, it's the events of that portion of the book from Thor's perspective!
 
Thor is Oathbound to protect the House of Lions as well as to keep Adam and Eve apart. When Adam finds the House of Lions at the very same moment Eve has returned to them, engaged to be married to its heir, Garrit DeLeon, Thor has no choice but to involve himself far more closely in her life than he'd prefer--as much as he loves her and desires her happiness, he never wished to endure a front-row seat to her marriage to another man. Particularly when he finds the man in question so unworthy of her.

 
Unlike WIELDING FATE, this novella is not nearly as spoileriffic for the entire rest of the series, and it's complete as is, so eventually I'll be releasing it wide--but it's been pushed back to 2025 at the earliest because, if you did not read my newsletter and already learn the news:

I'm taking a SABBATICAL from PUBLISHING!

This is not a sabbatical from writing. I'm just not going to be doing production and publishing work. I hate it and I am tired and I have 40+ individual titles in my backlist across three pen names now, and I just want to opt out of the content mill grind for a little bit, so I'm going to take some time to enjoy writing just for myself, rather than inside this "content creator" ecosystem we've built.

Which is all to say that everything that is currently Patreon Exclusive will be REMAINING Patreon exclusive that much longer! So if you want to read it, that's where you'll find it!

THIS INCLUDES:
  • WIELDING FATE: Part One, A Fate of the Gods Novella (The beginning of Ra and Athena's book which was staying Patreon Exclusive for the foreseeable future anyway.)

  • KING OF THE LAPITHS: A Helen of Sparta Side Story (Pirithous and Polypoetes's short story which takes place during the events of Helen of Sparta--I never made up my mind about releasing this wide but that can is getting kicked way down the road now!)

  • BRAVING FATE: A Fate of the Gods Novella (which will wrap up in December as a serial for $1 and $2 patrons. Patrons at the $5 level will get a downloadable epub of the full novella mid-November!)

  • OF GODS AND JOTUNS: A Collection of Short Stories (the paperback is available wide, but the ebook collection is Patron only, and I intend for it to stay that way, for everyone at the $5 and up level!)

  • COST OF LIVING (my Ur-Novel, which is getting an extremely limited special edition physical release but otherwise will remain Patreon exclusive--but the serialized edition is coming down at the end of the year, and will be replaced by a downloadable epub edition of the full novel, available only to patrons at the $5 level or above. This epub will REMAIN patreon exclusive basically forever!)
 
THERE ARE EIGHT SIGNED AND NUMBERED LIMITED EDITION HARDCOVERS OF COST OF LIVING UP FOR GRABS FOR ANYONE WHO PATRONS UP AT THE $25 TIER EITHER IN OCTOBER AND NOVEMBER OR NOVEMBER AND DECEMBER! See this patreon post for more info!
 
Phew, okay. That's a lot of information. And let me drop a quick reminder that you can listen to the whole of A BROKEN HORSE, my Trojan War retelling PODCAST on Patreon right now, too! 
 
So there are plenty of reasons to Patron Up before the year ends! GO FORTH, FRIENDS!



 
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Thursday, March 09, 2023

Building Your Author Platform (A Twitter Thread)

I have been living this authorlife for nearly 15 years, friends, so when I say this, I hope very much you will take it to heart, because it is a lesson many of us had to learn the hard way--and there is no reason you should have to!

When you are building an author platform, keep in mind you want your audience to be READERS.

It is great to connect with other writers! You need writer friends! But you cannot JUST be talking to other WRITERS on your platform, you need to be building an audience of READERS.

Look, I get it. Writing is what you do, it's what I do, so it's easy to talk about! Of course!!! and to a limited extent, readers are interested in process--the behind the scenes look at what's happening that results in a novel. But that's only AFTER they have read and loved your work!

FIRST you need to persuade them that you have something WORTH READING.

Engage on topics that are thematically related to your work! Engage on topics where the interests overlap with what you're doing in your books!!! Engage with people who are INTERESTED IN THOSE THINGS!

You can talk about writing and process, you can even poke a little at craft but ALWAYS REMEMBER that your audience SHOULD NOT be primarily other writers. Your audience should be READERS.

Other writers, on the whole, aren't going to buy your books. If you're lucky, they'll support your books with some retweets and shout outs on whatever social media service they prefer, but if you want your book to have legs, it has to reach READERS.

READERS READERS READERS.

"But Amalia," you say. "Writers are readers too!"

YES WE ARE. (Or at least some of us are, anyway.) BUT.

We all have a lot of writer friends and it is flat out impossible--IMPOSSIBLE--to support all of them by buying and reading every one of their books.

We see THE MOST BOOKS. We are INUNDATED with books we feel like we have to read or want to read to support someone we love or are desperate to get our hands on because it looks amazing because we are EXTREMELY PLUGGED IN to what is RELEASING all the time!!!

Your fellow writers are going to be the hardest people to sell your book to, the hardest people to impress with your work, the hardest people to win over as fans because there are just SO MANY BOOKS CLAMORING FOR OUR ATTENTION, including our own!!!

Focus your efforts on building an audience and a platform OF READERS and save yourself the struggle of having to figure out how to retrofit the platform you've built to support your releases later.



 
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Thursday, February 16, 2023

Tips for Writing Dialogue (A Twitter Thread from 2022)

It is BETTER to have TOO MANY dialogue tags telling readers who is talking than TOO FEW.

Too many--a reader's eye can skip over them as they're reading and they'll fade into the background.

TOO FEW and a reader is pulled out of the story with "Wait, what? Who said this??"

ALSO be cautious about breaking up your dialogue of a single speaker into multiple paragraphs without dialogue tags to indicate that the new paragraph is NOT someone else responding. Yes, you can have an unclosed quotation mark--but if the previous paragraph ends with internal narration or action, then the reader doesn't have anything to clue them in without a tag. You don't HAVE to start a new paragraph after an interjected internal thought/staging.

I totally overuse tags. I will "said" my way through every dang line of dialogue even when I have an action that will work for the beat/cadence pause I need instead. But the word "said" becomes invisible--excessive dialogue tagging is a risk you SHOULD take for clarity. (And something you can always pare back later in editing if it really is too much.)

One more dialogue tip:
It works best at the beginning and the end of a paragraph. Framing it inside a sandwich of action/thoughts/staging can result in the dialogue getting lost to the reader. Sometimes you need it, like if someone's frazzled or tripping but use sparingly.

These thoughts brought to you both by my current writing in which I am trying to rein myself in and let my action beats do a little more of the lifting, and also revisiting an old friend favorite read that lost me in the weeds of poorly framed dialogue this round.

A good, compulsive story with good characters/chemistry who you are rooting for desperately might overcome the technical issues in the actual writing as someone speeds through a book but--there's no reason to give readers an excuse like that to put it down, you know?



 
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Friday, February 03, 2023

The Gods Make Their Own Rules: A Pagan Twitter Thread from 2020

I've been going through and curating my twitter archive over the last few months, wanting to reduce my public digital footprint, but this is a thread that I feel like could use a better platform. On Twitter, I've talked A LOT about my paganlife and my relationship to Thor. "Come for Thor, Stay for More!" has been a defining element of my brand for a while. Some of those threads really should have been blogposts from the start, probably, and I'll be moving a couple over here for reference now that I've dug them out again!

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I have been spending a lot of time thinking and praying and engaging spiritually about my relationship to Thor and the genesis of it and I want to share a truth that I think gets drowned out by Heathens/Norse Pagans and the emphasis on Ancestor Worship.

What matters is this:
Are you having a spiritual experience/resonance/engagement with these gods?

If the answer is YES, then EVERYTHING ELSE is secondary. It does not matter who your ancestors are or where your family came from.

One thing has become REALLY clear to me in the last few months:
My relationship with Thor predates my awareness of him. My engagement with Thor predates my awareness of him.

I don't know how it gets decided, who ends up in which god's "house" (so to speak), but I was ALWAYS his.

It was always and ONLY just a question of me waking up to that realization--that he was there (and I'm coming to a realization, more recently now, that he was ALWAYS there, in shapes and forms that protected me from crisis before I had the vocabulary/context to understand.)

That ANY god is speaking to you on ANY level is the critical heart of the matter.

EVERYTHING ELSE is window dressing and entirely subjective and could very well be completely meaningless to your personal spiritual journey.

Maybe it is fate or maybe it is choice--maybe it is just some kind of inevitable ineffable universal mathematical equation, I don't know. But. It seems to me the gods make their own rules, and our job is just to choose if we want to say yes or no when they make themselves known.

This is not to say that community does not matter or play an important role in parsing our experiences of the divine, because of course it does--your community in the NOW matters. The people you choose to surround yourself with matter.

My Catholic Italian-American ancestors? They're still a part of my spiritual life. But who they are plays no part at all in defining my relationship to the divine--that's between me and Thor, between me and my gods.

I'm not saying this because I think it is an ABSOLUTE for any other community to accept--I'm saying it because it is MY truth, and if it is my truth, it is POSSIBLE it could also be someone else's, but they felt like it couldn't be because there's so much emphasis on "ancestors."

If you needed someone to give you permission to embrace whatever experience you're having with Thor or Freyja or whoever, REGARDLESS of where you were born and what your family culture might be historically, then this is it. Right now.

I'm giving it to you.

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Disclaimer: I do not believe this gives anyone a right to speak over indigenous voices or to impose their interpretation of their spiritual experience with any divinity over any existing culture's truth.

What is true for one person is not necessarily true for ALL people.





 
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Monday, December 19, 2022

2022 Release Wrap-Up!

I released a few titles in 2022!

COST OF LIVING

Exclusive to Patreon, available to read in full on the web for as little as a dollar a month, or in a handful of downloadable ebook volumes for as little as 5 dollars a month! (Watch Patreon for news of an extremely limited edition paperback/full ebook release in 2023.) This is a wild adventure, one part billionaire romance, one part medical drama, one part science fiction/fantasy, with some extreme mafia romance vibes because this billionaire’s money is absolutely ill-gotten, and he doesn’t pretend otherwise. First two chapters are FREE to read!!


BLOOD OF THE QUEEN: HARDCOVER EDITION

I took another pass through the book itself, spiffed it all up again, and created new chapter headers exclusive to the Hardcover edition interior. Plus! A pretty new cover to match the HONOR AMONG ORCS Hardcover design!


OF GODS AND JOTUNS: A COLLECTION OF SHORT STORIES

all my non-Fate of the Gods short stories in one slim volume, available only in paperback (because digitally, most of these stories are available to purchase or read for free elsewhere as individual titles) UNLESS you are a Patreon Patron, in which case--you can still grab the exclusive ebook edition at the $5 level!
Get the paperback on Amazon or Bookshop or ask your library to order it or Whatever!
 

SETTLING UP: A PLAYING TO WIN NOVELLA (PtW #2.5)

Want to know how Nic and Kate became friends after their rocky start as romantic--well, I hesitate to even call them rivals, to be honest, because Nic wisely stepped aside and offered her best wishes. BUT. You know that their earliest hangs once she started dating Will must have been Hella Awkward! AND THIS IS THE STORY OF HOW THEY GOT OVER IT! (Ebook only! Available wide!)
 

WINTER GAMES: A PLAYING TO WIN HOLIDAY SPECIAL (PtW #4)

in Paperback and Ebook! Come home to Heron Lake this holiday season and spend Solstice with Nic, your favorite pagan, Will, Kate and Sully at Abe and Violet’s new digs! (Their house has a phenomenal lake view!) Then stick around for Christmas, too! If you’re looking for a pagan inclusive holiday read, this one is FOR YOU! (And PLAYING TO WIN, book one in the series, is FREE across all your favorite e-tailers, too, if you just want to dip a toe in to my contemporary romance world first, before committing.)

*phew*
Anyway, come find me on Patreon and uh, buy my books, too!!!

Friday, December 16, 2022

Revisiting Forged by Fate, and Show vs. Tell

I'm revising FORGED BY FATE right now, for... well... reasons, and this book--there is so much of this book that I still love desperately, but in coming back to it twenty years after I started writing it, I've noticed some things that my baby authorself was doing, thinking it was THE RIGHT WAY TO WRITE that, well. Were kind of the opposite of helpful in getting my points across.

Let's talk about Show vs. Tell.

As a baby author, I was clearly determined to show everything! Instead of telling people how a character was feeling, I used physical responses. He hesitated. She closed her eyes. He tightened his jaw. She shifted away.

Listen. These kinds of small physical movements are all well and good--but there's a problem with relying on them as the sole means by which you communicate emotion. And that problem is this: By themselves they don't actually communicate the underlying emotion at all.

In Chapter Eight of FORGED BY FATE, there's a moment when Eve is still new and still struggling to understand the world and the people around her. She's with Adam in a cave where he and the other residents of the Garden have taken shelter, and he is--well, imposing himself on her, really.

 Eve shivered at his touch, and that seemed to please him. He raised his hand to her face, cupping her cheek and drawing his thumb along her cheekbone. She forced herself not to look away. Not to move. But everything inside her twisted. She wanted to crawl away into the darkness, but there were no shadows now to hide her. His face was so close she could feel his breath on her lips.

“Lord Adam!” She jumped, though the voice was familiar. Reu.

Adam closed his eyes for a moment, then turned his head slowly. “What is it?”


Now, Eve is new, so there's a certain amount of grace I need to give myself here, because trying to write someone who literally was only just created and is still in the process of understanding literally everything around her is AN UNREAL CHALLENGE to start with. But. Read that last line again:

Adam closed his eyes for a moment, then turned his head slowly. 

What is it actually telling us about Adam's response, emotionally? I mean, we might guess, as readers, what past me was trying to convey. Maybe he's tired. Maybe he's annoyed by the interruption. Maybe he's actually angry. Maybe he's just power-tripping, making Reu wait on principle. You, the reader, cannot actually know. BUT. Eve does. And the reason she knows is that he's touching her, and we know already from the text that when Adam is touching her, whether he realizes it or not, his feelings and thoughts bleed through the contact.

So why was baby author me holding back? 

Because of the age old mantra: Show, don't tell, a rule I was foolishly trying to live by to my detriment.

But showing, by itself, is IMPRECISE. I'm not communicating effectively what's happening, I'm leaving my readers to guess. And while there's nothing wrong with that, in the right circumstances--when the point of view character is guessing too, for instance--in this one, I was letting a mantra get in the way of clarity.

Eve shivered at his touch, and that seemed to please him. He raised his hand to her face, cupping her cheek and drawing his thumb along her cheekbone. She forced herself not to look away. Not to move. But everything inside her twisted. She wanted to crawl away into the darkness, but there were no shadows now to hide her. 

His face was so close she could feel his breath on her lips.

“Lord Adam!” She startled, though the voice was familiar. Reu.

Adam closed his eyes for a moment, then turned his head slowly, his body stiff with impatience. “What is it?”

Impatience. Now you, the reader, know precisely what emotion is motivating Adam's physical response, just like Eve. His patience is reaching a limit. Time for her is running out. Am I telling, by including that word? A little bit. But in telling, in giving that word to the reader, I'm making the passage STRONGER. My writing is clearer and more effective and Eve's response afterward, is given more support.

(And yeah, I changed Eve's jump response, too, because she didn't jump. Her response was small, a start of surprise. But baby author me hated the word startle and bent over backward to avoid its usage--again, to the detriment of clarity.)

Show, don't tell is a valuable piece of advice for writers. ALL TELLING is boring as heck! We all know that! But it isn't a hard and fast rule that we need to contort ourselves to accommodate. Let it be a MODERATOR, sure, but when it gets in your way, like almost every other "Rule" of writing--it's okay to throw it out.

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Glad Yule, friends!

Tune in next year for some fun announcements regarding what's coming down the pipe--or join me over on Patreon, and for as little as a dollar a month, you'll find out before the year is up :)



 
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